I’m at a very critical point in my career right now, where I’m basically going all in. I’ve been in a very conscious state of mind these past weeks, mainly because I’m still trying to gather my thoughts on how I really feel about everything.

I’ve been working at this for so many years, and I am finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel; and I don’t know how to express myself in words, or in any other way. Maybe it’s the uncertainty that kills me. We always look for some sort of security in everything we do, and whenever we live our lives; I mean it’s been built inside our heads from our parents. “Go to school, get a degree, so that way you’ll have a ‘fall back’” But I’m traveling far from certainty.

Doubt and Care have a really fine line between them, and sometimes I can’t tell when loved ones are doubting or thinking towards my well-being, and it kills me. I know I have what it takes to make it, so what is bothering me so much?

This on top of other things, life in general is hectic. Do I listen to my heart? Or do I listen to my mind? Trying to do what’s right, but there’s no solid definition for what is right, because everyone has their own opinion.

#Curveball