Persistence is really the key to reaching your dreams. People will doubt, people will critique; and you will ignore, you will adapt. Eventually you will see that the hard work and sacrifice you put in will be worth it. It may take longer than you expected, so stay motivated and patient. At the same time know your worth, know exactly what you want, know the steps you’re going to take to get there, and never settle for less. You only live once.
I am definitely ready to make my mark in the music industry, and change it up. My musical influences are so diverse, it’s ridiculous. I can’t wait to release my first album…ready to see how many of my subscribers/followers/fans/family/friends are ready to support by actually coppin’ one! :)
I’m at a very critical point in my career right now, where I’m basically going all in. I’ve been in a very conscious state of mind these past weeks, mainly because I’m still trying to gather my thoughts on how I really feel about everything.
I’ve been working at this for so many years, and I am finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel; and I don’t know how to express myself in words, or in any other way. Maybe it’s the uncertainty that kills me. We always look for some sort of security in everything we do, and whenever we live our lives; I mean it’s been built inside our heads from our parents. “Go to school, get a degree, so that way you’ll have a ‘fall back’” But I’m traveling far from certainty.
Doubt and Care have a really fine line between them, and sometimes I can’t tell when loved ones are doubting or thinking towards my well-being, and it kills me. I know I have what it takes to make it, so what is bothering me so much?
This on top of other things, life in general is hectic. Do I listen to my heart? Or do I listen to my mind? Trying to do what’s right, but there’s no solid definition for what is right, because everyone has their own opinion.
#Curveball
Dope.
Just got back from performing at the Sundance Festival, for the NFC Championship game; and wow…I gained a lot from this whole experience.
Having been hired by ESPN, I knew that this was going to be big, but I couldn’t have imagined it would be as ridiculous as it was. Celebrities walking left and right; complimented by John Sally (Best Damn Sports Show *ESPN*), Tyrese was in attendance, Schwayze; went back stage with Cee-Lo, among various other things.
The energy was amazing, and it was just all-around mind-blowing; however, I gained much more than I thought I would. I look back and reminisce on when I began, and almost tear up whenever I even think about it. It was/is all planned out, even when I don’t know.
From the moment I began rapping in elementary school, to breakdancing in the talent show, to being ridiculously interested in messing with the piano in Ms. Thomas’ room in the 4th grade even though I didn’t know how to play, to wanting to learn basic guitar chords on my mom’s 12 string, to my mom buying me my first guitar in the 7th grade, to joining choir freshman year, to writing music, to joining drama, and not having to force anything. I wasn’t trying to fit in, it just felt so right for me to be performing, and creating music.
I realize that no matter what, this is where I belong. I’m not normal, and I’m fine with that. Countless times I’ve been pressured to follow the status quo, and grab a 9 to 5 and live the citizen-life…but that’s not me. I’m not saying I’m better than anyone, but why is it whenever I think I’m different, people have to chalk it up as “I think I’m better than everyone else”. No. I’m just different.
You may not know how it feels to not be able to sleep ‘til 7 in the morning because inspiration or an idea won’t leave your mind unless you write it down. You may not know how it feels to hear chord progressions in your head constantly playing, or rhyme schemes/rhythm patterns on repeat until you finally sequence it on the computer. You may not know how it feels to FEEL/BREATHE/LIVE the music; to cry every time you see someone perform live in a sold out concert because you know the struggle they went through to get to where they are. How it feels to be in a complete mode of ambience among the stresses of life, just by having a guitar in your hand. How it feels to escape into the music entirely.
You might not know specifically how it feels to go through these things, but you may know how it feels to do what you love; and THIS is what I love. You might know how it feels like to work for something whole heartedly for so long in your life, and finally begin receiving the fruits of your labor. You might know how it feels to be so close to reaching your dreams. You might know how it feels to prove those who doubted you WRONG. You might know how it feels to make those who believed in you PROUD.
I gained this from this weekend. I may not be “Big-Time”, but no matter how long it takes or how much bull-crap I must endure…I’m going to make my dream a reality, and I am almost there…I can feel it; whether you support me/believe in me or not, I am almost there.
Short and simple, I don’t get it?
I’m not going to exclude myself, considering at times, I fall into this whole shenanigan. But, honestly, what’s up w/ it?
Bracelets, shoes, types of clothing, and even stretching all the way to food? Seriously, guys? Why does everything have to be labeled as, “Hype” or a “Trend” just because people like it. It really goes both ways because you have those “Hypebeasts” who supposedly stay on top of the trends for the sole purpose of attention; while on the other hand you have the “Rebels” who are “anti” hype; and slander those who like to stay up to date w/ their clothing/food/blablabla for which their sole purpose, in my opinion, is attention as well.
How about you not worry about what other people are wearing; whether they are supporting a cause (I love boobies bracelets) or whether their wearing it because everyone else is (Their still donating money, mind you); and just live your life. lol, ehhh iono, i’m not one to get into these kind of arguments, but i just dont get it. lol
“How can I sum up how I feel in word… I guess “Lonely” does the trick. *sigh*”
I have not been able to finish a song out of the past 5 I have been working on…I have a verse and chorus on each of them, and draw blank.. I need some inspiration, I need some motivation; can anyone provide either of these?
My pen is in a direct connection to my heart Though my mind and body feel helpless, feelings pour onto the paper as scribbles No rhyme or reason, no purpose for marketability, just raw emotion. Words are my outlet. My only way of expression Sometimes I feel certain feelings that cannot be described through simple adjectives; leaving me stranded..Am I limited only by my vocabulary, or is there a more reasonable way out of this feeling of emptiness and loneliness. I have no idea how to even begin describing how I feel about the current situation; I love my career, I love music, I love my family, I love my friends, but there are certain moments where I tend to question my priorities. What is important to me? Why am I doing what I’m doing? Is it the fact that I want my voice to be heard? Is it because I want to show the world the talents God has blessed me with? Or is it a more darker reason..is it lust?..is it fame?..am I following the right path? I don’t know why I’m writing but I have so much on my mind it’s killing me inside, I have to let it out. No melody, no rhyme scheme, no purpose.. All I know is that I’m getting to that point in my career and life where I have to make some major decisions. I still question whether some of those decisions I have made were right or wrong, but I can’t look back now. I wish every single emotion that has been running through my mind and heart could just be heard and expressed at will. Where I dont have to sit here and try to make it sound pretty or listener friendly. I wish I could just project my feelings to the sky so that anyone who can relate would comfort me and show me I’m not alone. I wish I could drop my pride and realize that people really are trying to help me, and not everyone is a bad person. There really are people who are looking out for my best interest. My heart just feels so heavy and the only way I can feel better is by letting it out. Is that the purpose of why I write?… 2011 is drawing near, and it’s looking like a big year for me.. I have got to get my mind right.
(Chorus)
Let’s go to sleep in paris, and wake up in tokyo
Fly you to the moon, Happily ever after; baby that’s how the story goes
See, we got potential; never detrimental
You the only reason i’m singin’ on instrumentals
Promise I’ll be gentle, g-girl it’s simple
I wanna take ya where you’ve never been to
so let’s fly, away (fly away)
Right away (Right away)
No finer day (Finer day)
Just try it babe…
Dance the night away (night away)
or any time of day (time of day)
You’ll like it
Baby let’s fly…
(Chorus)